Skin Suit

Human skin close-up, Author Montavius Howard, Source (CC0)

WARNING:  Graphic Images

This skin suit that surrounds me, more wrinkled now than any “lawyer suit” I ever owned, is no longer smooth, no longer supple.  It is marred by scars and stretch marks, like the tributaries of some ancient river; has been visited by varicosities, by callouses, hives, rashes, and eruptions too often to count.

But once this skin knew the joy of raindrops.  Once it knew the fever that passion evokes.

This skin suit that envelopes me has been bruised, pierced, incised, and sutured; has been burned by the sun to a poison apple red.

This skin has been stroked and patted, been tenderly groomed, oh so tenderly violated, again and again and again and again – each cell silently screaming in protest, recoiling in horror.

This skin suit of mine has served as a witness to all the best and worst aspects of my life, to the weakness and the strength, the failures and the triumphs; has lain prostrate with pain, overcome by grief, yet risen to see the glory of a new dawn, and lived to praise God for His deliverance.

And after my skin is destroyed, this I know,
That in my flesh I shall see God…” (Job 19: 26).

Originally posted 3/5/17



Filed under Child Abuse, Child Molestation, Emotional Abuse, Neglect, Physical Abuse, Religion, Sexual Abuse, Violence Against Women

13 responses to “Skin Suit

  1. We must be twins! I have the same skin suit. 😂

  2. I found in here the evocation of a bittersweet experience, the rollercoaster of pain and pleasure, and the ups and downs of joy and anguish.
    It is the description of hope and triumph in the end that is the best. Indeed, better is the end of a thing than the beginning thereof. Amazing!!! Love and blessings, Anna.

  3. Great post Anna!
    The Lord has brought you through so many trials.. He is our refuge and our strength.. 🙂

  4. Reblogged this on Anchor Thy Soul and commented:
    Skin Suit by Anna Waldherr at A Voice Reclaimed

  5. Francisco Bravo Cabrera

    I can’t say anything more than beautiful, thought provoking and so very real. Loved this post for it reminds me of our many blessings. Thank you Anna

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