Skin Suit

“Seated Nude” by Amadeo Modigliani (1909), Source (PD – 100)

WARNING:  Graphic Images

This skin suit that surrounds me, more wrinkled now than any “lawyer suit” I ever owned, is no longer smooth, no longer supple.  It is marred by scars and stretch marks, like the tributaries of some ancient river; has been visited by varicosities, by callouses, hives, rashes, and eruptions too often to count.

But once this skin knew the joy of raindrops.  Once it knew the fever that passion evokes.

This skin suit that envelopes me has been bruised, pierced, incised, and sutured; has been burned by the sun to a poison apple red.

This skin has been stroked and patted, been tenderly groomed, oh so tenderly violated, again and again and again and again – each cell silently screaming in protest, recoiling in horror.

This skin suit of mine has served as a witness to all the best and worst aspects of my life, to the weakness and the strength, the failures and the triumphs; has lain prostrate with pain, overcome by grief, yet risen to see the glory of a new dawn, and lived to praise God for His deliverance.

And after my skin is destroyed, this I know,
That in my flesh I shall see God…” (Job 19: 26).

With special thanks to Marie Williams and Sandy Meckler for their encouragement and friendship



Filed under Child Abuse, Child Molestation, Christianity, Emotional Abuse, Neglect, Physical Abuse, Religion, Sexual Abuse, Violence Against Women

22 responses to “Skin Suit

  1. A wonderful reminder of the incredible durability of skin, of humankind in general, and you in particular Anna. Thanks for sharing.

  2. Oh what a story we could tell if we all reflected on our skin suit. Very touching, honest and beautiful Anna!

  3. How many of us really, truly value and appreciate the ‘house’ in which our spirit abides for our time here on earth? This ‘skin suit’: faithful, durable, giving, forgiving, accommodating, encouraging, keeper of our secrets and our truths? This is one person’s tribute to a part of her which has faithfully remained with her during times of joy and times of tragedy, which has sacrificed its own needs in order to allow her to live her fullest, most authentic life and joins with her in praising the Life-Giver, our faithful Lord who not unlike her skin-suit has been her rock, and faithful companion.

    Thank you Anna for sharing your story and allowing your skin-suit to be the platform on which to bear testimony “to praise God for His deliverance”.

    Thanks also for the mention: it was a pleasure to contribute in some small way dear friend.

  4. What a masterpiece of words, Anna. Our bodies are changing for sure but I think there’s a different kind of beauty as we age. I’m positive you’re beautiful because you’re created in His image, as are we all.

  5. Wonderful post. I really appreciate your willingness to be so open.
    There are so many memories attached to this suit of mine. Some good, some not so good.
    Many lessons learned in this suit.

  6. I am in awe….your words are powerful beyond measure….reflective of the beauty of your soul….thank you… ❤

  7. Anna, as always, I am in awe of your wisdom as well as amazingly gorgeous writing

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