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Food as Comfort
You endure a childhood of sexual abuse. Food is a comfort, solace for this inexplicable violation you have repeatedly experienced but cannot understand.
The Roots of an Eating Disorder
By your teens, you develop a weight problem, along with an eating disorder. Though you do not realize it, both these are related to the abuse. You deal with all the usual adolescent turmoil and the pain you carry around inside by bingeing.
Shame and Lack of Support
You have no emotional support, no one to guide you toward adulthood. And virtually no clothes, since there is little thought given by the adults around you to the needs of a growing child.
You try on your mother’s clothes – in part so that you will have something to wear, in part to see what it feels like to be a grown woman. But your mother is shorter in stature than you, and the clothes are too small.
You feel ashamed, unworthy to be a woman at all. Continue reading